Friends and Fun in Fanjeaux, France
This blog is based on my trip to Fanjeaux, France. Dominican Colleges from all over the US sent students, faculty, and staff for a unique experience where we learned about St. Dominic and the history of the area. This blog has both my class assignments and a description of what we did each day.
Thursday, July 1, 2010
Erec and Enide Extra Credit
Final Blog - Question 5
Dear Diary,
Today is a bittersweet day. I finally worked up the nerve to perform “Don’t Be Afraid” for a small crowd right here in Fanjeaux. I don’t remember exactly who was there, but I do remember Philippe and Pierre being there. Part of me really wished that Philippe had some noble emergency that he had to attend to, because it was very awkward to have my husband listening while I was singing a song about Pierre. I can’t be with him, because he is of lower class than I am, and I am already married to a nobleman.
Philippe seemed to not be listening to me at first. Although it’s viewed highly that a woman knows music, he thinks that the kind of songs I write are just silly. They’re not sophisticated enough for him, but little does he know, they’re full of feeling. Anyway, I could tell when I started that he wasn’t really listening and it made me less nervous. However, as the song went on, I could see his ears perking up out of the corner of my eye. My heart started to pump a little faster, but I tried to ignore the fact he was there. That’s horrible to say; he’s my husband. I should be in love with him and grateful he’s listening, but I know he’s not listening because he likes it – he’s listening because he’s curious. Let’s face it – I’m not in love. With him at least.
Pierre however, oh Pierre. HIM I’m in love with. He was standing right in the middle of the crowd staring at me with those dark brown eyes. Why do I love him so much? He’s “only” a knight. I say “only” because that’s what everyone else thinks. I think it’s such a brave job, and I don’t understand why I can’t love him, other than the fact I’m married. (I’d prefer to ignore that tiny detail…) When I was singing, he knew, I could tell, that it was for him. Deep in those eyes I could see that he felt the same way I did. I could see both the love and the sadness that we could never be together.
I’m really hoping that no one else could tell what was going on – that I’m in love with someone other than Philippe. It scares me, because I did see a few people giving each other questionable looks and I heard some whispers. My only hope is that because it’s generally frowned upon to perform your own music that they all think someone else wrote this song and I am merely the jongleur. I made sure to not announce that I wrote my song.
I’m going to bed with mixed emotions tonight. I’m so proud of myself for performing for the first time. I’m nervous what Philippe will think and if he knows it was based on truth. I’m happy that Pierre heard my song and knows my true feelings, even if they cannot be acted upon. I’m hopeful that the rest of the community doesn’t realize I was actually singing from the heart. It’s sad that I can never be myself, but at least I have my music to pull me through the long days.
Good night.
“Don’t Be Afraid”
Don’t be afraid to look my way
Your eyes are the only ones I see
Don’t be afraid to say hello
Yours is the only voice I hear
You weren’t supposed to come into my life
Sometimes I wonder if it’s worth all the strife
But then I look at you and I know
I’d walk a million miles for you to be my beau
Don’t be afraid of what they might say
Our hearts are the only ones to agree
Don’t be afraid of being below
To me that’s not how you appear
If only we could be together, my life would be complete
Sometimes I wonder why we had to meet
There are nights this suffering is too much to bear
Long nights of sadness and despair
Then I remember you eyes and I remember your smile
And I know it’s all worth it for a glimpse of you every once in a while
Because this would have been performed with music, I wrote music to these lyrics. Due to unexpected compatibility issues with my computer I couldn't record the music, but I think it's important to try and best explain it.
The first and third strophs have the same melody. They go back and forth between the tonic and dominant chord. The first and third lines both end on the dominant chord to show the "unfinishedness" of the phrase. The second and fourth lines end on the tonic to show the completeness of the thought.
The second and fourth strophs have the same melody. They go back and forth between the subdominant and supertonic chords. It never goes back to the tonic, so it sounds a little "off," but still in the key. It reflects that it's a new idea, but not completely out there. The fourth stroph ends on a minor submediant chord, the only minor chord in the song. The lyric here is "despair." This word painting emphasizes the sadness of this verse.
The coda goes back and forth between the tonic and dominant. It goes back and forth often, to show how often she changes her mind, but ends of course on tonic, representing that she eventually feels resolved.
Final Blog - Question 11
“Erec and Enide” was written by Chretien de Troys in the twelfth century. Although it was written so long ago, there are parts of the story that are surprisingly relevant to today.
The middle section of the story begins with the wedding of Erec and Enide, and then they go off and have adventures along the way. Erec’s reputation fluctuates with this. His reputation is very high when he is in love with Enide, but this quickly changes when they get married. Before they were married, everyone was jealous of Erec. All the knights wanted a maiden as beautiful as Enide for themselves, and were in awe of Erec for it. This is shown in the extravagant wedding. It lasted two weeks, many people of importance were in attendance, and they received a myriad of gifts. However, things quickly changed. Erec stopped his jousting and many of his knightly duties to spend time with Enide. He wanted nothing more than to just be with her, and he was intent on spending every last minute of his time with her. Other people in the court started noticing and getting annoyed at him for this. They were also beginning to feel resentful towards Enide, for “stealing” him away from what he was supposed to be doing. Enide knew that people were talking about them like this. She began to feel guilty and did not know what to do.
Enide has an immense amount of love for her husband, yet Erec sometimes doubts it. Her love is evident in many different occurrences. For example, Erec tells her not to warn him about any impending trouble and tells her that if she does, he may get so annoyed at her that he will then stop talking to her. Although of course she does not want this, she loves him so much that she feels she needs to warn him of a few events in order to keep him safe. If he gets mad at her, so be it; at least he will be alive and safe. Another example of her love is when the count wants to kill Erec. She knows Erec is in danger again, and stays up all night to make sure nothing happens to her love.
Despite this, he sometimes doubts her love. Erec demanded that Enide not tell him when he’s in danger, and she disobeys him. He gets mad at her for this. This happens a few times. One time in particular is with the incident involving the count. As they are leaving, Erec says “You have little esteem for me, since you despise my instructions. Nothing I say to you can correct your behaviour. But if God has mercy on me and I can escape, this will cost you very dearly – unless I have a change of heart” (81). These occuranes can be interpreted a few ways. On one hand, it seems that Erec doubts her love, because she keeps disobeying him. He obviously gets frustrated with this and it seems to hurt his ego that a woman could tell him better when he is in trouble than he can himself. On the other hand, he could be very confident of their love. Despite how many times he yells at her, she keeps coming back and he knows this. This seems to be the prevailing notion because of another thing that was said during the incident with the count. "Now Erec could see clear proof of his wife's loyalty to him. 'My lady,' he said, 'have our host get up and tell him to com here Treason began a long while ago!'" Because Enide did not choose to go with the count and chose to keep Erec safe, he knew definitively that his wife was loyal to him.
In the Middle Ages, husbands were to have complete control over their wives. The whole issue involving Enide warning Erec is evident of this; he does not like to be told what to do by his wife. Erec is the one in this relationship making every single decision – when they depart, what they decide to eat, and what needs to be said to one another. He wants complete control over his wife. Although Enide does battle this at times, he generally has control.
Final Blog - Question 7
“Hello everyone. Welcome to the ‘Frolicking Fanjeauxians’ tour. I am your tour guide, St. Dominic de Guzman. I’ll give you all a minute to enjoy the beautiful view and take a few pictures before I continue on.
Can you all hear me? Good. I have a lot of information to share with you all today, and I wouldn’t want you to miss any of it. Let me start by introducing myself further. I was born in Caleruega, Spain to Felix Guzman and Jane of Aza around 1170. Before I was born, my mom had a dream of a dog with a torch in his mouth lighting up the world, and she knew that her son would make a difference in this world. I bet she had no idea, however, that eventually the Catholic Church would name me a saint.
Today, this town seems so quiet doesn’t it? Well, when I first arrived here in 1206, it wasn’t. It was a bustling little town. We had farmers, we had soldiers, we had families living here. It really was a nice place to be. Not that it isn’t now; I just want to stress that it was very different. We also had jongleurs. Can anyone tell me what they are? Yes, sir in the back? Correct! Jongleurs are performers who performed the poetry and music of the troubadours.
This town was quite the interesting place to be. It was also not a wealthy town. The law in this area was that wealth was to be distributed throughout the family, not just given to the oldest son. This is of course a more fair way of doing things, but it made any wealth in the family quickly go away. Towns were usually ruled jointly by noblemen.
Anyway, where we are now is an area called the Seinadou. It’s one of my favorite places in Fanjeaux, not just because the people have been so kind as to put up a statue and a mosaic of me, but for the beauty you can see from this spot. It is from here that I saw a ball of fire falling, which I believe was an act of God. I was inspired to talk to people, especially the Cathars, after the crusade was over about converting to Catholicism. I was able to help some of the women convert, but sadly, their families would not take them back. It is because of this that I set up a convent for them in Prouilhe. Imagine your family not wanting you to come home because of your religion? They needed a place to go, and I was only doing what I could to help. I spent 8
years here before leaving for Toulouse in 1215. I am sad to say what has happened here since then. During the French Revolution, there was a huge fire, and the monastery was abandoned for almost 100 years. Even today they are going through legal troubles with the people doing construction on it. Despite all the hardships, I know this place will recover and continue to embody the spirit it has always had. I’ll give you a few minutes to take some pictures before we continue on.
Okay, be careful walking. They’re doing some construction and I don’t want anyone to get hurt. However, I haven’t actually seen anyone working all week. Either way, be careful. Okay now on your left you can see ‘The House of St. Dominic.” I may or may not have actually lived here, but I’m not going to give away the secret. My favorite part of this building is the stained glass windows. They depict me during the time I was here and I’m honored that someone would take the time to decorate this place so beautifully.
Now everyone stop! Don’t walk into each other, just stop. Do you all see the beautiful sunset? I just wanted to make sure you all noticed it. In 2010, I notice that so many people are so busy in
their lives that they don’t take the time to notice all the beauty around us. We’re going to now keep walking to the right, towards the Belvedere. I talked to the owner, Monsiur Gaiye, and he’s being kind enough to let us conclude our tour on the patio, so just follow me up the stairs and through the hallway.
Okay, from here we can see where I talked about before. Prouilhe is down that hill. It’s a very nice walk down to the monastery, and I encourage you all to take the trip. On the way you’ll see many different fields, including some with peas and even some with the fastest growing sunflowers in the world. But yes, we’re sitting on the patio of the Belvedere. Many different groups come and stay here throughout the year, including a group of students and faculty/staff from Dominican colleges all over the United States. They come to learn about me and the time period in which I lived.
Fanjeaux is now a very different place than I knew, but I’m glad that people still make pilgrimages (that’s one of my favorite words) here and that the history of this town is being kept alive and not forgotten.
Thank you for coming on the ‘Frolicking Fanjeauxians’ tour. I hope that I’ve been a decent tour guide. I don’t ask for tips; I simply ask that you go out and preach by way of study, community, prayer, and mission. If you have any questions, please feel free to ask, and don’t forget that we will be praying the nine ways of prayer at the couvant later tonight.”
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
"I'm going to get metallic skin surgery" (Day 16)
"Look! STOVES!" (Day 15)
We began today by going to the Musee D'Orsay. The art in this museum is from 1850-1914. We saw a good mix of sculptures and paintings. The ones that stood out to me the most were he ones by Claude Monet, who is one of myfavorite artists. I especially liked the two largest that were in a room with only one other painting. I was smart to sit next to Sister Patty - she was pointing things out to me that I wouldn't have noticed otherwise. For example, she pointed out how the subjects were not looking at us at all, as opposed to the paintings the tour guide had talked about right before these, from a slightly earlier time period. She also pointed out the different plants and the patterns on the dresses. My favorite was the one next to the Japanese bridge of a church, pained in warm colors. Our tour guide explained how impressionism was not widely accepted at first. People didn't like that it wasn't realistic. Many people felt that if this were to be considered art, the concept of art would no longer exist. It's interesting to think about this, because I'm such the opposite; I believe anything creative is art.